そうする！と決めた。

ネガティブな感情は受け取らない！と決めた！

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そう決めてからすごく楽になった！

そうきめていたはずなのに受け止めてしまって苦しくなることよくあった。

受け取らないようにしよう！では緩かったんだ。

受け取らない。

昔子供の頃にやった

「バーリヤ」と言って結界を作る感じ。

そうする！と決めた。

そう決めてもざわざわ、グサグサ来ることがある。

ネガティブな言葉や視線を投げつけられた直後はやはり反応してしまう。

それは仕方ない。

そーいうことって予告なしにくるものね。

急にくるものね。

直後より、その後が大切だ！！

投げつけられた泥やツバみたいな物は

バリヤについているだけで、

私の身体には（私の存在価値には）

全く影響ない！

そんな当たり前のことを改めて理解して

そのような方が起きたら俯瞰できるようになった。

友人が相手の感情に引っ張られてしまったという悩みを受けて、私が今していることをお伝えしたのです。

例えば、だれかに怒られた・・とする。

怒られた・・ではなく、「あ、・・怒っている」と捉える。

それだけ。

そのあとは自分を癒しに専念。

どう感じたか。感じたことを自分と対話する。

怖かったね〜

悲しいね〜

苦しいね〜

でも大丈夫。私の価値は下がらない。

私最高！自分大好き〜

って、やってみない？

私はネガティブな感情は受け取らない！と決めた。

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